Wow, it has been such a long time since I have posted anything! And that's not because things haven't been happening. My life has been exploding with opportunities lately, and I've just been struggling with how to handle everything. This post may get a little personal, but I know some of you have probably been through similar things, so I would love your feedback in the comments section.
I'm taking more credits than I ever have before. I'm working at an awesome internship 20 hours a week. I'm managing a team to pull off the PR and advertising campaign for a cool new TV show. I'm doing some volunteer writing for a local art museum. I'm trying to keep up on all the millions of projects and ideas that constantly fill my head. And finally, I'm preparing to move to New York City in less than a month for a Summer internship!
My life has never been this full, so I'm wondering where all of this came from. It started sometime last year when I decided I was sick of coasting through school and wanted more from myself. I saw opportunities arise, like the chance to go to New York, and did what I'd always done. Told myself I couldn't do it. Then something changed and I decided to start going for things. So I applied for New York. I applied for my current internship. I was more driven in school and got more involved. I was shocked when things started working out that I never thought I could do.
I feel so blessed and thankful for all these new things that are adding richness to my life. The only problem is, I'm having a really hard time finding the balance. I don't have nearly enough time to keep our house as clean as I'd like. I don't feel like I'm as supportive and loving to Seth as I should be. I rarely have time to cook or shop so we're eating healthy. I feel like my creativity has become stifled. One good example is my complete neglect of this blog. And I've been starting to have some health issues that I'm pretty positive are resulting from the extra stress.
Every night, I come home and literally collapse onto my bed. That's about all I can do One of the biggest problems I've noticed is that I constantly feel drained and fatigued. I need as much energy as I can get to keep going the way I am, but it's just not there emotionally or physically. I have struggled and worked through depression for many years, but somehow, this feels like something different.
So here's the point. I NEED BALANCE. If I were that pair of feet, I would be hanging by one little pinky toe.
Last night, I went to one my professor's (and idol's) home for dinner and a panel discussion on work/life balance. It couldn't have come at a better time when this is what I desperately need. I got some good tips, but still feel completely overwhelmed.
So I want to know, how do YOU do it? I'm sure all the full-time working, resourceful, renaissance women and moms out there are rolling their eyes thinking, "she has no idea how much harder things will get." But that's the thing. I don't, and right now, I'm struggling to take things as they come, step by step. It is to all you wonder women (and men) that I am crying out. Any advice would be incredibly appreciated as I try to balance my new ambitions with my personal life.